Do you know, when one is dying but trying very hard to prolong one's life (which I am fairly skilled at!) it is very lonely, isolating? My main contact with people is over the internet and phone. A few friends kindly find the time in their hectic life to visit and in Melbourne it is further to travel and the traffic is not as easy as it was to see my friends when I lived in South Australia. My parents, carers around the clock, are my constants. Else, of course, there is hospital.

Sometimes I wonder why I am fighting to stay alive. Yet I continue to do my best.

In my more functional time, I am working towards making up a website. Is it a way to fill in my life before dying or am I actually trying to make a final contribution? I hope it is the latter. The site has been evolving very slowly because of my health fluctuations.

When I surf the web and see how much evidence there is about tobacco being so dangerous (the criminal activities of this industry) and acknowledge the harms it has done and is doing to others, I reflect on my life to see how much damage it has done to my body, my life.

This is not only my battle. I cannot do it alone. It is society's battle and those who hear my cry may find the courage to put in that little bit extra to reduce the suffering of people, especially the innocent - those harmed by passive smoking/environmental tobacco smoke.

Why can't vulnerable people get in and out of hospital without risking their life from tobacco smoke. Why can't vulnerable people go for walks in the park, along the beach, from carparks into shopping centres, along shopping strips, into Universities and more?

Yes, we have come quite a way since the mid '80's when I first stood up on this issue. But here am I, in the Year 2000, and I still cannot do the above paragraph's activities. Nevertheless, others who are also vulnerable usually just die quicker in their efforts to live a life and do the so-called normal things.

It most likely would be considered unlawful discrimination when put to the test, but it continues and continues and continues. Are you interested to make it stop?

One part of my site, will in the future, give solid actions that people can generally do in their daily lives to make a difference. Not too difficult, not too much energy, but enough to make a contribution to bring positive change sooner.